Service Bliss

So, I am finally getting to the post about the other party I attended earlier this month.  

Maeve, in the form of her cycle, has been very consistent with me for the last several months; she is always here on the first Saturday of the month.  I can count on her like clock work.  As I approach my crone years, my cycle grows shorter in length but is more intense and painful, so much so that my body is usually unwilling to scene at its start.

Well, this month things weren't so bad, which surprised me.  And I could've scened, actually my greedy whore was clamoring to scene!  Earlier in the week, I'd had the pleasure of watching others' scene, which caused my hormones to start doing a happy dance of their own.  Cycle or no cycle, they wanted some attention already!!!!

But that was simply not to be.  

I actually got a mongo hazelnut latte to drink at the party in an attempt to try and wake my ass up.  It worked eventually.  

But Rowan was flat out exhausted.  I could see it in his eyes when he first came in and his body language just confirmed it for me.  Though he pepped up at times throughout the night, he was still physically exhausted.

So down in the dungeon after he said he 'just wasn't feeling it tonight,' I offered to give him a massage.  And did so the entire time people were scening.  I have no idea how long it lasted, but am guessing at least 90 minutes.  

I was nervous at first, really worried about being able to bring him pleasure, worried about my technique, worried as I didn't have oil with me.  Ironically, I'd deliberately left my oil at home because Rowan hasn't allowed me to massage him before.  

But at some point, I allowed myself to get completely lost in what I was doing, focusing solely on his back, neck, and arms, trying to notice the shift in his muscles as my hands went over them, the flexing, and turning--trying to get in touch with where he needed my touch the most.  

People were scening all around us, but I honestly watched very little of it because I was so concentrated on Rowan and his needs.  

By the time we were finished, I was completely blissed out.  I'm not even sure why I was blissed out other than the fact that I know my service needs were being met and hadn't been before.  I also think some of the bliss was due to the fact that bringing pleasure and relaxation in the form of massage as well as energy work, is in alignment with my Sacred Whore path.  I know it's an essential part of this path and am in the beginning stages of teaching myself more about both.  

So I walked out of that party feeling amazingly fulfilled and was sky-high for many hours afterward.  It was yet another important step along the path of this lifestyle which is also directly linked to my walk along the  path of the Sacred Whore.   Both bring an abundance of blessings to my life which I am very grateful for.